One of the saddest things is knowing that you loved someone dearly but they weren’t the person you always thought they were. You think of them as all perfect, loving and faithful, but then you find out that they’re the opposite. They lie to you and hurt you so badly.. but they say sorry. Sorry is supposed to make all things right. Sorry is what drives us forward and not back.They keep hurting you, and if you’re a strong person, you fight through it, or better yet, you end things with them. But the memories and time spent on them are irreplaceable. Oh God, when those memories come back, they hit hard. Those memories make you crave that person you thought they were..but the problem is you thought that person up. No one wants to realize this. Neither do I. I’ve felt this way not just about one of them , but I have hopes on one of them.This person was like a summer love, he made he smile in the cutest ways and i felt comfortable with him. It was a short relationship, but I thought he was the best guy i’ve met. But he had a dark side. I won’t get into detail but let’s say faithfulness and respect is not in his vocab.Sometimes i wonder if he stops to think “who am i?” “why do i really do this?” “Will i ever stop doing these things?” I tried knocking some sense into him but it doesn’t work, and I don’t know why. I constantly think, ” What if this guy actually does get his life together and what if he decides he misses me and wants me back?” When I think of the positive outcome, I smile widely. I remember those happy cute memories and think ” If he didn’t have that dark side, those memories would’ve been even more precious, he would’ve been my actual prince charming.” I try and talk him into realizing this but one can’t force someone to change, they have to take action and do it.. for the better.
I miss you….don’t ever think i don’t.Maybe you’ll come to your senses and well, i’m here to listen to you.